I created this account on here a while ago when I wanted something new and different from my old blog. But I guess after a while I realized that there was no reason for me to write, so I deleted all the posts I’d had on here. But now I’m at a new point in my life where I’m ready to start over, and start new. I’ve gone through so much in the last year that it feels like it’s time to start fresh. And it’d be nice to have somewhere to talk. Writing has always been a way for me to vent in the past. But now it’s not only something I use to vent, but it’s nice to just talk. And document and see where my life takes me.
I just moved out of my apartment a week ago, back to my parents house. Leaving was hard and I’m still having issues adjusting to the fact that this home that I’ve had for so long, is no longer mine, but belongs to the people that were the reason for me leaving in the first place. It’s aggravating feeling like they’ve taken over my home.
I won’t really describe my issues with the roommates that I’ve gone through in the last year, but let’s just say this; after going through 10 different roommates and being the only original person that moved in in the the first place, I’ve hit my limit on being able to tolerate living with people with issues that bug me. After a while, I realized that after so long, I don’t have to put up with people being shitty to me, if I don’t want to deal with it anymore. This is my damn house, and I invited you to live here. There is no reason that you should be ordering my ass around and getting angry when I’m out doing things with my other friends.
Okay, sorry. Got a little off topic for second, there. Actually, this last roommate was one of the better roommates that I’ve had. [Trust me, I could write a crazy novel on all the insane roommates that I've had over the last year.] But I’ve just had enough.
So anyway.
Here’s where I’m at in life:
I’m living back with my parents. Happy about finally being in a good environment.
My parents and I never used to get along, but ever since I moved out, they’ve been great. I get along with my parents pretty well now and they’re awesome. I couldn’t have asked for a better pair to be my parents.
I still work at Fred Meyer, still hating that I work in retail. But work has even gotten better. We got a new manager that’s pretty cool, and while my hours aren’t as amazing as they could be, they’re still decent and I’m pretty much never scheduled for closing shifts anymore. So instead of wasting my day sleeping till an hour or so before I got to work; I’m working in the morning and getting off early enough to see my friends, again. Plus, there’s a little more responsibility in the daytime shifts and I like what I’m doing for my department.
I haven’t seen a lot of my friends the last year because of being entangled in my crazy life, and dealing with an insanely crazy relationship. But now that I’m finally done and overwith with my crazy relationship and house; I’ve finally gotten the chance to get back to the great people in my life. It’s nice being surrounded by so many different, amazing people again. And that alone, just makes me a happier person.
A long time friend of mine who’s life has been nothing but all different aspects of music and shows for as long as I can 
remember, is asking my to be a part of his new music project as a female vocalist and pianist. While the thought of getting back into music is pretty cool, it just means that I’ll once again have to get over my fear of singing in front of people, and probably start playing shows this fall. O_o
I’m thinking about looking for a different job to get away from all of the drama that comes with where I work. I don’t know where, but I’m on the hunt for something new. The change would be nice and it’d be cool to try something different.
It’s so nice to take a break from being a grown up and not have to be paying rent and utilities for a while. It’ll be cool to finally have some money in my pocket. As soon as I got my first job, I moved out 3 weeks later and I never got a chance to really spend my money on whatever I wanted. So part of these next few paychecks are going to a new wardrobe, a couple more piercings, and finally; some new tattoos. I can’t wait to have moneyyyyy.
I’m also planning on going back to school, I’m just not sure what for. There are plenty of different things I’m thinking about, I just have to pick one.
I’m ready for a new relationship. I want to meet someone new that I can just have fun and be happy with. Just the thought of falling in love again and being happy with someone who could treat me right, excites me.
I’m ready to be the person I used to be, and the person I want to be. I’m so excited for the future.
